I want to believe in magic

I want to believe in magic. Not the pull a rabbit out of a hat type of magic. I don’t care much for magicians, illusionists, tarot card readings, fortune tellers or any other sort of hocus pocus. I want to believe in magic that is available to me everyday.

I recently had an incident happen where I wear my father’s dog tag that he wore while serving in WW2. I went out for a run one day and when I returned home I noticed the chain was broken and the tag gone. Finding it again would be nearly impossible as I cover a lot of ground and sand at the beach on my runs. A few days later I went for a run again. I changed my course a bit for some reason and I suddenly came upon a shiny object on the road. It was the tag, bent in half probably from a car but I had it again. I wear it with a much sturdier chain now.

What were the chances of finding it? Not very good, however it came back to me. Now, I can chalk that up to coincidence or even luck, but what is luck? I don’t think anyone knows. It’s mysterious, magical. What’s coincidence? A chance happening, luck? Possibly magic.

I’m a recovering alcoholic. I was living a life of a slow death. I survived it and continue to. My chances were statistically very poor of pulling through in one piece. Statistics said I would be dead or permanently injured from an overdose or some sort of car accident. So I can choose to see my life as magical. I’m living proof of it.

And you know I can be completely wrong. Maybe there is no rhyme or reason for anything, however my life is much better when I make the choice to believe in miracles. It all is just a matter of where I put my attention. My habit is to look in the direction of darkness-I can’t, it won’t happen, never, no, I’m too [fill in the blank], I’m not enough, don’t have what it takes etc…But what if I looked in the direction that there are things happening beyond my notice or comprehension. That I’m proof that there are miracles. Really all I have to do is look down at the chain around my neck. Hey it’s Friday or it’s a fuckin miracle-where am I looking?